So what started out as a crappy night due to new clutch cable failure, turned out pretty good. Thanks to everyone who helped keep an eye on my little ones and everyone that helped with the car. Nothing like winning to cap off your week!

It’s not what you thought
When you first began it.
You got, what you want
You can hardly stand it though
By now you know

It’s not going to stop
It’s not going to stop
It’s not going to stop
Till you wise up

You’re sure, there’s a cure
And you have finally found it.
You think, one drink
Will shrink you ‘till you’re underground
And living down

But it’s not going to stop
It’s not going to stop
It’s not going to stop
Till you wise up

Prepare a list for what you need
before you sign away the deed
Cause it’s not going to stop
It’s not going to stop
It’s not going to stop
Till you wise up.

No it’s not going to stop
Till you wise up
No it’s not going to stop
So just give up

We were warned in 2010 on The Walking Dead…’s the video..

So back in June I decided to start eating better and getting in shape. I was doing ok back in 2012, but then I had a 2nd shoulder surgery. I was off work for almost 4 months. I did NOTHING. I took kids to school, layed around and ate pizza, fast food, DQ for breakfast every day. I gained back what little I had lost the year before and plenty more. This past June I was at my heaviest I’ve ever been in 35 years.  268lbs.  at 5’ 7”  that is A LOT of weight to carry around. I would be out of breath walking up a flight of stairs. I still had strength, but NO endurance. I would go through an inhaler a week without fail, not doing anything, just existing.  Lunch was always a greasy burger, or a fried chicken sandwich. Cokes, lemonade ect. ALWAYS had to have something sweet after a meal too. I finally had enough, enough of looking at myself in the mirror and turning away. Enough of not wanting to have my picture taken.  So I started, slow. I cut out soda cold turkey, and within a week I was drinking nothing but water.  2 weeks later I stopped drinking alcohol completely. Since June I’ve had 4 drinks of alcohol. I started with a basic cardio type workout, every other day for 30 min, using resistance bands. Eating better makes all the difference in the work. In July I put up a new cover pic…..I felt kinda stupid putting it up because you just feel that way when you’re super out of shape and you’re trying. You think no one believes you can do it and that everyone is looking for you to fail.  But every day, every meal is a choice. You shouldn’t let what anyone else thinks, says or whatever, dictate what you do or don’t do when it comes to your health and your life. I’m not starving, by any means, though it does take some getting use to, anyone can do it if they choose. They have to find what works for them and stick to it. You can’t expect to be skinny in a month. It takes time, I’m in it now for almost 4 months. I haven’t been sick (other then a day or two of allergies) My back pain is GONE. I have more energy, and it really is true what Oprah said about males and weightloss ;)  .    I’m not even close to being done, by any means, but I feel so much better already and I wish more people would believe in themselves and get after it. 


this is how Parks and Recreation explained Chris Pratt’s weight loss for Guardians of the Galaxy 



Soooooo good. Jealous.

This thing is rad af

Our hearts beat so loud the neighbours think we’re fucking
when I’m just trying to find the nerve to touch your face.
Andrea Gibson, Pansies (via align)